"im bleeding perfusly out of my vagina and there's a mass murderer at my door!!"

wwhhhaatss uppp? if your reading this your probably as bored as i am right now :) well its 1 in the morning and i just got home from merritt island where i saw the new movie boogeyman (spell?) Most of the honda boys were there and so was melissa, katlyn and holly. It was fun...the movie scared the crap out of me. well i havnt really written in this thing in quite awhile...so lets update it a bit shall we? the last two weeks have been busy. Every Friday is movie night in merritt island and saturday night is car club out in orlando. except for last weekend. we didnt see a movie friday instead we partied at katlyns since her parents werent home...which i must say was some crazy shit...i was plastereedddd. oh well, i had fun, and i think everyone else had fun to watchin me and melissa drunk lol. then saturday we thought it was gonna rain so we didnt go to car club and went to see a movie instead.

i cant wait till Feb 18th...i get to go see the Taste of Chaos concert in Orlando...its gonna be a blast :)

So yeah i wanna tell ya about tuner bash cos im really bored and really excited about it. On the weekend of March 18th a whole bunch of ppl get together from everywhere and show off their awesome cars. Girls usually model for them to draw more attention to the car, and sometims if they are lucky someone from a magazine will take pictures of the models and the car. well this isnt the best part. we are gettin 2 hotel rooms, where there is a pool and a beach right outside and with a little help from the older folks LOTS of alcohol. so yeah we are all very excited for this trip.

seriously ppl are so gay...i know this is totally off subject but seriously girls can be such bitches. I hate them all. i cant say names but it involves a boy and i cant believe things get to be as big as they are. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA!!! i hate it...no matter where the fuck i go...its there-always. oh well i guess its something i have to get used to.

wow i just wrote a lot of shit

ok i think im done rambling for the night. peaceeee nucca

ok well it is impossible for me to keep up with this thing...i dont even know why i bother to be honest. i guess its just a good venting tool. although most of the time im not even mad lol. right now im a lil scared cos im goin up to georgia in a few hours for my surgery tuesday. its a big surgery so yeah im worried. oh well im sure everything will go just fine. :) ok i think my cd is done burning so im out..LATA!!!

ok i havnt been to this thing in awhile. im not really sure why the hell i am writing in it again. lol. but i guess ill give ya an update on whats been goin on lately. the last couple weeks i have been out of school, due to medical problems. I am going in for another surgery a week from today in Georgia. ITS GONNA BE GREAT. lol *sense the sarcasm* but yeah ive been workin my ass off doin all my work at home cos i really need to graduate this year, and since im missing so much school im falling behind a little bit. I was talking to michael last night and i think i really want to go to cali for college. i looked up some colleges for education and everything but there is only one and from what i have heard its not the greatest college in the world, so i have no idea whats goin to go on with that. i also talked to some of my teachers and got a lot of the crap that i needed to do out of the way, so i think im headin in the right direction. im so unsure about where i want to go for college, i want to stay here cos its by my dad, but then i want to go to NY cos its cos its by all my other friends and family, but then i really want to go to cali cos cali is just flippen awesome. i dunno, i might do a fast track yr at the community college here to see what i def want to do, cos i found out if i even want to go to college in FL no matter what if i graduate from the community college, they have to accept me. i have no idea how to explain it but from what i heard its pretty rad. I still want to take that road trip to cali tho mike ;) ill just live with you for like a week or so and then just come back haha. alright ppl im off. peace out!

what up bitches? so yeah nothing has really been goin on this week except that i finally got my license. It about friggen time since i got my permit over a year ago. so yeah the last two days ive just been drivin around, usin every excuse to take the car. Today and tomorrow we are having finals in school...thank god cos i really cant stand my classes anymore. We get to start fresh in January. The only thing that sucks is that I dont know if I will be having anymore classes with Donnie, Brent or Samantha. We'll just have to see. AAHHH cant wait tomorrows the last day. :D alright im out, gotta go call my boy oscar.

So yeah its Sunday and Im bored. Brent was supposed to come over at like 4 when he got home from work, but it is now 6:30 and I have come to the conclusion he isnt coming lol. Im sure something came up or w.e. Anyway nothing really happened this weekend. Friday me Brent and Donnie went to the mall for shopping for like an hour then Donnie dropped us off cos he was goin hunting the next morning. So Brent and I chilled at my house till like 12 cos my dad was goin to sleep. That was interesting. Saturday was fun. Brent came over after the parade, we hung out, watched ELF and baseketball untill Donnie got here from work. Then the three of us went to Brewsters to wait for Donnies friend Lo who was goin to buy us beer. She's really friggen cool. After we picked up some bitch beer and bud we went to my neighborhoon where there is this huge mound of dirt. We went behind there so we wouldnt get caught. Then Donnie and Brent the dorks they are were runnin up and down and ended up scratchin themselves up. Oh well. Then today I just watched football, as I usually do. It was fun. Now I am sitting here procrastinating cos I really have to clean my room its a disaster area. In the process of procrastinating I was reading my friend Jess' journal and I feel like crap. I havnt been there for her like I should be. She has been such a good friend and I havnt called her or anything in months. Actually I think I will go do that now. Later :p

Well the last couple weeks have been crazy. I have been hangin out with Donnie and Brent a lot. My friend Billy says we are attached at the hip, which seems to be true lately. Last weekend was just pure crazyness. Friday Brent and Donnie came over, they skated played football and tried teaching me how to wrestle which didnt work out the way i planned. Then saturday i was forced to get out of bed at 9 o' fuckin clock cos Donnie called and told me to be ready by 10 so we could go christmas shopping. So we went to the flea market where instead of buyin gifts for everyone else we bought ourselfs new belt buckles. they kick ass. Then after that we went to Merrit Island to go to the mall where we hit major traffic because there was a parade. This ended up being the BEST trip to Merrit Island EVER. Since we werent moving much we noticed that there was candy on the ground, so Brent jumped out and tried pickin up as many as he could while we stopped. Then the people in the car behind us started throwin candy for us so Brent and Donnie would jump out of the car pick it all up. The ppl were laughin at us soooo bad, but its all good. Then the little boy in the car infront of us started throwin candy it was great. We managed to fill my whole cowboy hat with candy. Then after we did some more shopping for ourselves we went home. Donnie went to wrok and Brent and I just waited around until he was reay to pick us up. Then we just partied for the rest of the night. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA. lol Donnie. It was just crazy. But I had such a good time. Well thats it for now. Peace

ok so this weekend wasnt as exciting. it was still fun but not as eventful. friday i just waited for sam to get off work, picked her up then she slept over here. Then saturday Sam Kalman and I went shopping, then sam came back here we watched a whole bunch of scary movies then yeah u guessed it she slept over my house again. then all today ive just been doin catch up work since i get to go back to school some time this week (hopefully) but yeah it was a very relaxing weekend, went by pretty quick. it was nice. alright im out. peace niggaaass

ok so here is the update on the past weekend my friends...
Friday:
invited myself to stay over Kaitlyn's along with Samantha and Melissa. pretty kick ass night. of course we had out the video camera again so it was frigeen hilarious. I think we were pissin off Kaitlyn pretty bad, eh whats new lol. Eventually when the fun started to die down Samantha and Kaitlyn went to bed, Melissa and I on the other hand decided hey lets pull an all nighter. GREATEST NIGHT EVER! we stayed up till 730am slept for an hour and then went shopping lol. yeah i managed to down a bottle of Kaluha (spell?) without using hands. i know im awesome! lol but yeah it was a blast.
Saturday:
Went shopping at like 10am with Melissa after pullin an all nighter. then went home slept till about 530...waited for Samantha to get off work then her and I went a haunted house up in Melbourne. Then went home and went to bed... I know not that exciting
Sunday:
Samantha and I got up at like 11am went to Wal-Mart which i must say kicks fuckin ass, but anyway went there to get our costumes all figured out. I decided to be a slutty cow girl and Samantha was a school girl. After this we went to Samantha's and cleaned her room. After hours of trying we finally got in touch with Richard so we could all hang out. At around 5 Samantha went to work, so then I went home and did my brothers make-up for his Halloween costume. IT LOOKED AWESOME!! i did such a good job lol. After that I chilled at KFC where Sam works and met her manager Charlie. He's pretty cool, he's like in love with me already lol. He's already called me a whole bunch of times. But hey at least I know I'll be able to have a job when I need one lol. Anyway hung out there, convinced Charlie to let her off early, went home got into our costumes, we looked hott, then waited for Richard to find a ride. Then we headed out to the carnival and the haunted house at the mall down the street. But to our suprise everything was close, should of known since it was a sunday lol. So we just came back here chilled for awhile until it was time for Richard to go home. Samantha ended up stayin the night and she got a ride into school with my Dad, since I dont go to school. It was loads of fun.

Hope you enjoyed my stories :o) lol. Im out peace

ok so last weekend was very amausing. Friday night I went to Kaitlyns and hung out with her Samantha and Melissa, more people showed up later on but that was the first time i had ever met them. Most of them were drunk so it was very funny to watch. Then after that Sam came back to my house and stayed the night. Saturday was pretty rad. We attempted to go to Holly's birthday party but she was a bitch and the party was gay so we left. We hung out at Kaitlyns for awhile but then Kalman just dropped Samantha and I back at my house where she stayed another night, but this night was a lot more fun. Sam and I were givin some alcohol to take home so we did and got drunk. We ended up using the video camera and made this funny ass video. I used a new tape and im goin to show all my friends from NY what I do here, so in the video I try to tell my friends from NY what I hang out with. Its soooooo friggen funny. I try and tell people some of the stuff thats on the tape but no one understands, I guess they will just have to see for themselves. Then Sunday we as in me sam and kalman, went out to the dock with Anothony Jamie (guy) Michelle and her little sister. It was gorgeous out. Sam got mad cos I wasnt out there for more then a half hour and I got a tan by just standing there. She's ver white lol. I think now that Im off the crutches Im gonna go to the beach next weekend cos I got very pale while in the hospital and shit, plus I havnt been there in awhile. OH Im so excited for Samantha's birthday me her and Kalman are going to go to Disney for the whole day, I guess there are two seperate things for day and night so you have to get some kind of pass or just buy two tickets, I love disney, Sam and I want to take a whole bunch of pictures with the Princess' cos we are idiots and still love that stuff lol. Ok well im done cos I hate this whole typing thing. PEACE BITCHES!!

Yeah well this friggen weekend kicked ass.
Saturday:
Went to the tracks with Samantha and Kalman it was sooooo much fun. Of course i thought it was a lot more fun cos i was on crutches lol. But hey that got me a long way. People moved out of the way so i could see and hey it even got us free beer, helps you know that me and sam are just so damn hott. haha. but yeah me and sam you know are freezing so we are sharing this little beach chair thing to keep warm, that was a task in a half. Well we were sittin there smokin these cigars and then this guy old dude comes up and asks us if its weed. we were like "sorry no, we wish it was" and then he was like "well if you want some let us know" so me and sam are laughin our asses off. But then we see the guy drinkin beer and stuff so we are like dude i so want a beer really loud, so the dude was like well you ladies are more then welcome to our cooler. we were so friggen happy. Of course we werent rude so we only took one each. I think the best part was that we were there again the next day and he didnt even realize who we were. But yeah so this dudes drunk and we are talkin then he asks how i hurt myself. so me and sam look at each other and made up this crazy story that we were playin football and she tackled me even tho it was tag football and i went to like go run after her and then i fell and broke my ankle. this guy totally believed it. which was great. we decided since we had so much fun that we would go again the next day...
Sunday:
Ok so we went a little earlier this time like around 430, well yeah i guess mother nature hates me cos she decided it was goin to be extremly hott today, well that doesnt work out for me since im on crutches and thats a work out all by itself. im gonna have bigger muscles than arnold haha. but then this random woman on a golf kart asks us if we want a ride so i was like um hell yeah im dying so we hop in and she brings on the total opposite side then the one we wanted to be on cos there were no seats on that side, so we had to then walk allll the way back to pretty much where we started. but w.e you know theres nothin we could do. the worst part is that there were like 1000's of people there so it was really hard to get around. But then alas we find some space of the bleaches but then the real obstacle, there were stairs to get up to the damn things. so i just decided what the hell im just gonna walk. probably not the best idea but i wanted to sit down so friggen bad that i didnt care. then of course when the races started up again everyone stood on the bleachers so i couldnt see a damn thing. so we get up and set the beach chair at the bottom of the bleachers. me and sam shared again while we obsessed with taking pictures with Kalamans camera. That was only in between each race tho cos Kalman needed to take a picture of every god damn car there was racing that day lol. but yeah today was so much friggen fun. It was such a simple day but for some reason i loved it. I think I've finally found my place here and Im really starting to like it.

I probably wont be writing in this for awhile cos its goin to be a very busy week. Tuesday ive got an appointment to get my stitches out and then talk about all my other problems lol. Then Wed im goin to Georgia to see another doctor for another surgery in the next month or so. Then hopefully I start school again this Thursday which will be hell since I have to catch up on all the work i missed from the past 2 weeks. I better friggen graduate this year or ill be pretty pissed!

Ok well im off to bed, laterrrrr bittcheesss

ok obviously its impossible for me to stay happy lol. i swear like 2 days after my birthday when i said that maybe it was finally gonna be ok well yeah i jinxed myself. i just got home from being in the hospital for a week. i had 2 surgerys while i was there and yeah it pretty much sucked. ill be back on my feet by like tuesday but then im goin to atlanta to meet another doctor whom will let me know when im goin in for the next surgery which will probably be sometime soon. although i have to say bein in the hospital wasnt to bad, the food was suprisingly good and i had visitors almost everyday. Samantha and Kalman came in everyday except for when i was havin surgery of course which was pretty awesome. but yeah im super tired so im gonna take a nap...later

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yeahh def might be going to Europe this summer :D i went to a meeting this evening at the school and they are oraganizing a senior trip to Europe. its only like 2500 which is not bad at all! my grandparents already offered 500 bucks, i may even get some money from my great grandma who is like filthy rish. i think shes got half a mill. in her account right now. i even got my mom to say she would try and contribute. now if i can get my other grandparents to help out and i get a job this week i think im all set. i might also start askin around if anyone needs a babysitter. so yeah if anyone wants to send me like 20 bucks that would be awesome lol. i figured since its already october and i dont have a car and theres no chance of gettin one in the near future im just ognna save up for this trip instead and then save for one when im ready to go to college. jeez i hate money. money is the root of all evil! but yeah since i have my room back i gotta get my shit back in so im out. pppeeaacceee nigga

yup TODAY WAS MY BIRTHDAY BITTTCCCHHEESSS yeah def like the best day ever. i thought it would suck this year but it def didnt. ppl in school were so awesome. 4th block everyone sang to me, even tho i wanted to crawl into a cave and kill myself it was still cool. this girl jessica in chemistry made me a cute sign. then Samantha and Kalman bought me flowers and balloons. hahaha it was so funny Sam bought all these party hats and party favors, i felt like i was five again. i loved it. i was a little bummed that niether Athene or Amanda called, theirs and Aubrys birthday wishes were like the most important ones. BUT Aubry did wish me a happy birthday which was awesome lol. yeah def got like no presents this year, i got lots of money tho. 240 BUCKS pretty excited cos im def goin shopping. WHOA like my mom even called me today, she told me she misses me and my package should be here soon. yo havnt talked to this woman in like over a year. this is so awesome. things are finally gettin better, like everything. im talkin to my mom again, im makin awesome friends here, i even like a guy *wink*, im finally over things that made me upset from back home. i think im finally happy!!!! lets just keep out fingers crossed that it stays that way long enough for me to enjoy it. I LOVE MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmn havnt written in this thing in quite some time, oh yeah thats cos i was in fuckin ny havin a kick ass time. lol. yeah it was awesome. monday night went out to dinner with my grandparents and tio, then went back to tios house to hang out. tuesday i hung out with jeremy chris tommie and nick then hung out with tio which eventually led to hangin out with my suuuuggggaaaa dosk and tansey. then wed i had court in the mourning then went over to pine bush high school broke in like the rebel i am. must say that was the scariest shit ever since bryan farley got arrested doin that. but i got to see my thene thene, kelsey jean, the boys from lunch last yr and mike hodges, yeah he def almost broke my back. then later that afternoon athene and aubry came to pick me up and we went to suprise amanda and again my back was almost broken, lol. then that night slept over ama j's with aubry and athene "yes yes yes yes yes" haha good fuckin times i must say. "come on athene lets just go kill him its alright lets just go, come on we'll kill scott and then boomer will just clean it up" only a select few will understand why that is so funny. ahh so many memories. ok then thursday (the last day :( ) i went home then had lunch with my mom and my little sister, i know wierd but nice. then saw ama and benny before i left then i was gone. and now im back here in good ol' florida.

ok well this weekend was a blast. friday night went to the homecoming football game, yeah that shit was kick ass. they def went all out, after the game there was the band which took up the entire field and then they actually had a dance team out there i think they call em glitter or some shit. and to make it better Titusville actually won. then after the game i picked up samantha and she spent the night at my house. that was fun. ok then sat was interesting, all day i spent gettin ready for the homecoming dance which is like friggen prom but called homecoming lol. before we went to the dance we went to an awesome italian place called carrabas, mmm, then after the dance we went to the race tracks, yeah def had everyone starin at me cos i was still in my dress and everything, it was funny. then got drunk lol. it was a good time. now im sittin here fighting off a hangover and i just want to go to sleep, so maybe ill go take a nap. (nut im le tired, so take a nap then FIRE THE MISSLES) haha funny funny. ok im out ppppeeeaacceee

so bored

so yeah havnt written in this for quite some time, i guess its time to update y'all. this week was ok for some reason i was in a really good mood, no clue why. but yeah last night i went to this drag racing thing about 20 minutes away with Kalman, Samantha, Katlyn, Holly and some of Kalmans friends met up with us. Most of them were racing tho so we didnt hang out with them much. OH MAN Kalmans friend Thomas, uh yeah gorgeous, his arms are just awesome. The only problem is he has a gf. Funny thing is tho last night when i was with Holly Samantha was talkin to him and he told her that he thought i was hott (pfff) and that he would break up with his gf in a heartbeat to go out with me. i was laughin sooo hard u have no idea. I guess they have been goin out off and on for like 2years but she has cheated on him like numerous times so he wants to end it. So i guess i dont mind lol. I told Sam that i felt like a really bad person for it but she told me not to worry about it. so i guess i wont lol.
I might not be on here for awhile because there is another hurricane named Jean. ITs already almost a catagory 4 which is pretty bad so i think i might lose electric so i wont have my computer. Doiesnt matter anyway cos im hopefully leaving for NY monday night and come home Thursday night. I dont know if ill be able to fly out, depends on how bad we all get hit with this stupid hurricane. but yeah hopefull i wont lose electric for to long. ok im out, peaaaccee

well today was fun. after school mi padre brought me and kaitlyn to millenia mall in orlando. i finally was able to find a dress i liked for homecoming, now i just have to find shoes....sigh. but im excited. should be a good time.

ok today was pretty cool. went to the mall with samantha and caitlin. we got these baloon animal things which was really funny. i had this demented lookin flamingo. samantha had a flower and like 20 minutes later one of the petals deflated and then caitlin had this purple monkey made into a pink hat. she wore it all around the mall it was histerical. while at the mall we went shopping, bought some books, bought some shoes and tried on a few dresses for homecoming. it was very nice. i had a good time. after the mall we went back to caitlins and she made us some dinner with some ghetto ass garlic bread HAHA. it was really fun. caitlins actually gonna start driving me to school which is awesome cos i hate havin my dad do it, yeah i know its pretty gay. so far everything is goin great. we're all probably goin to the key's next weekend and stayin with caitlins dad. we are tryin to plan a cruise for spring break which would be insanly awesome. and i think we are going to washington this summer to see caitlins brother when he gets out of the marines and i think we are also gonna go to cali at one point. weird ive only hung out with these girls this weekend and we are already plannin all these insane road trips. its goin to be so awesome. i love it here i really do :)

yo i love life. things are finally gettin better for me. last night this girl Sam from my chemistry class invited me to hang out with her friends, at first i was a little hesitant because i didnt know who they were but they turned out to be some really cool fuckin people. I slept over this girls Caitlins house and shes cool as shit. Now im going the beach with Sam and her bf Kailman, then goin back to Caitlins for the night for movies and pizza. its goin to be pretty kick ass. I feel like im friggen high, im just so happy. im lovin it. Sam was jokin around about this guy Anthony she wants me to go out with. She thinks its a perfect match, we'll see. Hopefully now ill be able to stop thinkin so god damn much about everything shitty thats happened to me. and maybe FINALLY i will have some friends that dont feel the need to backstab me. its goin to be great. although i makin new friends they will never replace the ones i still have back home (JESS AMA ATH AUBS ERICA DANI) my girls :) love u guys to death.


oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TREVOR, sorry i couldnt be there for it.